Hi Cinders,I was just reading your post and I couldnt help but shed a few tears for you. Lately I have been crying alot myself...I know your pain and it is here we can vent or whatever and it seems to help tremendously.... to have people in here know how we feel...
I wish I could of helped you when the tree fell...you said it felt like your life...broken....I dont know whatis happening to me but there have been lots of tears lately....lots of jealous thoughts... asking myself how could he of stopped loving me....
I went to ER this weekend was having heart / chest pain.... thank God it was not a heart attack.....he never called to check up on me and speak TO ME....at least pretend he still cares.....just a little... I wanted to call him and ask him it it was too much to ask for him to at least pretend he still cared a little about me....just a quick phone call to see if I was alright... but nothing....I did text him to let him know I was ok....no TM back either....
Maybe it is the time of the year... maybe more emotional... this was the first year of everything that is important to me without him...birthdays...anniversary...father's day...and everything else....I feel I want to just cry out LOUDLY.... here at my daughters house I cant do that I dont want my D13 to hear me still cry for her daddy...I am holding it all in and it is killing me inside...
I pray alot and it does help... but still the tears are there and my heart aches.... Jesus said He came to heal the brokenhearted... and he has.... but I still am very emotional...
My heart goes out to you...I am sitting here posting to you and my tears are flowing ..... cause I know the pain.. the jealous feelings...the why me...??? why us...???.
God be with you and me it is all we can do for right now...lean on him for comfort......
