Still More to Learn

[VeronicaV]

Thanks, Alex.

[Tawnya]

{{Beth}} Reading about your shallot meltdown <grin> made me think of my trying to hang up a curtain rod meltdown..GIRL I just cried for like half an hour HARD..because I couldn't get the nail/screw into the wall to hang the curtain rod..LOL..

You are right tho about our emotions controlling vs us controlling them..

Tawnya

[VeronicaV]

Tawnya,

I remember your curtain rod meltdown, you poor thing. At least you had the good sense to do that at home.

One more thing we have in common, right?

[VeronicaV]

ICK! Clearly I am nowhere near detached enough.

I just got a call from our doctor's automated appointment confirmation service. Why can't he just have the calls go to his cell or office???

Anyway, I tried to send an email but could not log into my email. Called H, knowing he'd never take my call. Left a brief message, tried to sound upbeat.

Now the stinking adrenaline is pumping. I cannot believe how awful it feels to call my H. I cannot believe I have trepidation about talking to him. This feels like crap.

[AlexEN]

Hmmm... If it makes you feel that way AND he can't even have the calls go straight to himself, is it really your obligation to try to relay the message to him? Not sure what I'd do in your shoes, but that was the thought that came to mind reading it. Would you have felt better about the whole thing if you'd ignored the call and told yourself it's his issue, not yours?

[VeronicaV]

AlexEN,

You are probably right.

This is what I mean by not being detached enough, or not knowing how to do this DB stuff. I really think, given his high BP and chest pains, that he will have a stroke or a heart attack soon. I am suprised and pleased that he is going to the doctor. Did not want him to miss the appointment.

Even if I never get him back I do not want him to be sick or worse. I will never detach that much from him.

[A in Ohio]

Beth - tough sitch. With medical conditions like that it's hard to detach. But what says you can't do it little by little? Detaching is a lot about self preservation. You have to do it for you.

[VeronicaV]

A,

Thanks. I have been trying little by little. Another reason I had to call - last time this happened he told me he notified the office of the number change but they obviously did not make a note of it.

Trick now is to stop wondering why he is going to the doc and what, if anything could come of it.

[AlexEN]

Beth,

If you're doing it for the noble reasons you described that is very admirable. Just make sure you aren't doing it for an excuse to reach out to him.

-AlexEN

[JWM]

Beth, Regarding the shallots...I'm doing the same thing. Some small things bring back good memories and I get upset thinking we may not do this again. Stay in the present...amazing how well that works.

I'm saying the same thing on my thread.