Maybe so, maybe so. I wish my H were coming around or calling at all. I have no idea if he is noticing anything with me.
That's not quite right. He must have noticed given our last meeting. Seems the result is not positive, though. I show him happy and well-adjusted and he heads for the hills. Not that I think crying and pleading would work but it sucks when resiliancy does not bring about the desired effect in H.
I know the changes are for me and that is why I have made them. And I feel better for having made them. But, I am also human, and I want my H back so it sucks that it does not seem to be working.
In the back of mind all the time is the sentence in the DR about how some marriages cannot be saved and some WAS never look back. Right now, I feel a bit like someone trying to whip a monster back into the basement just trying to keep that thought from taking over my day.
