Opening a new thread, the other will be locked soon.
Journaling
This morning I am thinking about this question: do our moods control us, or do we control our moods? I think both are possible but I think we should control our moods. Clearly, this is much easier said than done, but it is one of my new goals.
This question came to me because, sitting here, getting ready to journal, I started to take stock and asked myself, "How am I feeling?" In that very moment, I realized my predisposition towards letting my moods control me. The very question shows what I subconsciously believed. If I believe that I should control moods, the questions should have been, "how do I want to feel today?" and "what can I do to ensure those feelings happen?"
I think my answers should be realistic. Given my current situation, I am not likely to feel ecstatic, as I would if I had won the lottery and H came home all healed and ready to work on the R. But, with some good PMA and some focus, I bet I can create a peaceful and somewhat happy mood for myself today.
Not trying to be all pollyanna about this. I realize there will be ups and downs. I am not going to go from someone who has let others set her feelings and moods for her, to some totally detached, independent person overnight. But, little-by-little, if I actively and consciously choos happiness, slowly, I think I can make it happen.
Please do not hold this against me during my next cryfest;) And I think we all now by now, I will likely be having another cryfest. Though, they are occurring less frequently!
