Stella, I know how difficult it must have been to tell your D the truth. Honesty is always the best way to handle the sitch.
I can relate to your feeling numb, not wanting contact with H and not really DBing anymore. You have been in limbo for such a LONG time. Only you know when it is time to move on. I have a feeling your H will continue to waffle back and forth for some time. For your own PMA, you may want to detach yourself completely from that ongoing uncertainty.
Stella, I will really miss you - you have always supported me throughout my drama. Please remain in touch.
Many HUGS!!!
Me47 H46 S13 M16 Piecing since May/09
"Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we react to it." Lou Holtz