I'm not sure it's caused by H or thoughts of him, as much as it is caused by me worrying if I'm not just going to 'drop dead' one day...(fear of dying). I think it's that, and that is something many people have, but I will need to take control of. Hopefully yoga or some kind of meditation can help me get through the worst. I think the biggest worry might be death and what will happen to my kids when I die...afterall, I'm doing most of the looking after them.
Anyway these are things that I need to deal with properly as they are unnescessary worries.
Thanks guys...
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus