Tried really hard this week to not let everything bother me. Felt some relief. Spent time with some good friends for dinner two nights this week. That always helps. I have the best friends in the world.
Having trouble connecting with husband. I can see that he is trying harder to make a connection after we went to the see Fireproof. The problem is that I have become so distant, I do not feel comfortable with him now. He never touches me and the other night he started rubbing by back. I have ached for a long time for his touch but when he touched me, all I could do was flinch. I did not want him to touch me. I am not sure how I can ever let him back in my heart. It is like he is a stranger now. The fear of him hurting me again is stopping me from being close to him. I refuse to go through all that pain again. How can I rebuild my marriage like this?
M:38 H:42 T:20 M:19 D:18 S:17 MLC: Sometime in 2007 OW Bomb 1: 12/28/07 OW Online relationship 2: Spring 2009 Told him I wanted D: May 10, 2009 D final: 07/09/11
