Tawnya - Thanks for the hugs. I am always grateful to receive them. And I am really proud of you for finding the martial arts class. That will really be good for you.
Imstillhopeful - wow, that was a really nice post, thank you for that. I have had several sessions of DB coaching with Jody and I always feel so much better. My IC is usually really helpful, it's just that every now and then he hits me with a zinger and it will resonate for a little while.
One thing I am is incredibly stubborn. I will not give up on H or our R until I am damned good and ready. It will not matter one hill of beans what anyone says to me. I know in my gut the man H is right now is not who H is as a well person. I refuse to quit on him or us until I know and see he is well. If he is well and happy without me and telling me he no longer loves me, that will be one thing, but this sorry, sad, sick and lonely man that he is right now deserves someone in his corner even if it is from afar. I know he would do this for me if the roles were reversed.
One thing that troubles me a bit: a lot of GAL activities make me miss H because I wish he were there with me, or because I would love to tell him about what I saw or learned. UGH!!!! But good little DB trooper that I am, I do them anyway because they are good for me.
