((everyone))

so he emailed me back! less than 24 hours later!!

Transformer,

Sure, that sounds great. Let me know when you are in town. I leave for the Magic of Christmas [the christmas concerts he does in maine] before the crack of dawn on the 11th, but before then my schedule isn't so busy.

I had a great conversation with C [his youngest brother] this morning and I was trying to brainstorm with him where would be good places to finish out his undergrad degree. [his college] is becoming for him what [b's undergrad college] became for me: a frustrating, non-inspiring, simply "get finished-so-that-I-can-leave" kind of place. I have some ideas, but I know you did extensive research in the area of "cool places to go". Have any helpful thoughts?

Thanks and see you soon!
B


I got so flustered. the 10th of december is this coming wednesday!!! I am not even done with finals by then. I probably won't be in NYC until the 17th at the absolute soonest. I can't tell from his email if he'll be in NYC at all this december, after the 11th.

It's interesting that he wants to ask me for advice for his little brother. when I was in high school I applied to *11* colleges and did tons of research about it... and also when I was in college I thought several times about transferring. I'm kind of surprised that B remembers that, he didn't meet me until long after that was all over, and I don't think I talked about it *that* much...

I think I should call him once I calm down and start the conversation by asking more about his brother and what his brother is looking for. Then I can tell him that I'm not planning to be in NYC until after the 18th, will he be back in NYC at some point after the 11th? I could possibly mention that I will be in Boston and on the off chance he might be there. If he's not in NYC at all when I'll be in town, then I can mention that I'll probably be back in NYC in january to play for cello teachers. Damn, I hope he is there in January!

For some reason this is really throwing me for a loop. I guess I was really counting on seeing him this december and now I don't know if it will happen. Even though I've intellectually prepared for this possibility I feel really weird about it. I wish I could see him more than every few months!!!!!!!!

Eagerly awaiting your advice as always...

(((J))) thank you so much for supporting my email!!
(((E))) I do remember this analogy but for some reason I have trouble applying it. maybe i need to practice with some puppies...

LOVE,
T