Didn't realized I'd locked up. Guess that's some form of detaching huh?
Did my Christmas party last night. And it was weird. I was more uncomfortable than I think W was. It was just hard being there knowing that a number of the people who work for me know what has gone on, not because I've told them, but because they figured it out on their own. I can see now why W would be apprehensive in her own right.
But W performed her bosses W's duties quite well. She hasn't seen any of the people who work for me in over almost two years so I was introducing her to the guys and she was just fine. She went outside a number of times with the smokers group, one of which is my admin, and they always came back in laughing, smiling, etc.
W was helping me with the head waitress and the budget we had for the party, was even doing some things that showed me she was glad she was there.
After the party broke up I asked W if she wanted to go have a drink at this little tavern near our house and she told me she was really tired as she'd had a long day at work so we came home. S16 had gone to the H.S. basketball game and then to a friends house. So W and I just sat and talked for a bit. At one point she was just staring down at the floor, obviously deep in thought, but what those thoughts are, who knows, but I know, not for me to worry about. On my way to bed I told her thanks for going with me and that I'd had a good time and she didn't really say anything.
It was all so normal it was scary.
Hope4us
Me - 49, W 49 S22 & S18 Dday 9/4/07 W claims NC 4/7/08 8/29/09 - Divorce Busted. Lots to work through, but we're going to make it.
