God grant me the patience and the strength...9

[theotherhalf]

I think they say "put your big girl panties on". Thanks Bill,

Regardless of all this crap back and forth here this last week. I am doing what youv'e all been telling me to do. I have made it a week with no phone calls to my H. I really don't want to talk to him. He called me the other day to tell me something about money. He left a VM and I never called him back. He did stop Wed and Thurs after work. I was cordial but pretty much did my own thing. All he wanted was to talk about himself anyway and I'm sick of hearing it.

It's like my H went back to where he was a year ago at Christmas time. Damb him! But this time, I'm not going with him. I am moving forward. No more going back. If that means losing my H for good, then that's the way it has to be.

He was here yesterday while I was at work. Good thing he was gone by the time I got home. Him and BIL put a wood burner in the machine shed. I am pretty ticked about it. WTF?!?! He doesn't live here anymore. Make up your freakin mind already!

I have spent my week just hanging out at home. Working on projects that have needed done. Some decorating, some repairs, some Christmas stuff. The rest of the time I've spent hanging out with the girls. Waiting for them to have time to help me put the tree up this year. I've always done it myself. This year when they are ready we will. Depending on the weather I am going to maybe go shopping today so I can get that over with. Won't take me too long as we are completely broke.

As for my plan Bill,
I am afraid to say it because every time I do I don't stick to it. But here goes...

I will not call my H other than for IMPORTANT business.

I am not asking anything from him. I will not ask how he is. What he is doing. Where he is at. What are his plans.

I will not go to where he is.

When he is here he will have to come to me to talk, I have other things to do.

If I have plans (very rare) and he shows up. I'm going anyway.

I will not ask about OW again, I don't believe him anyway.

If my H asks me for sex, "no sex is better than feeling like a whore afterwards". I need more or it ain't happening.

Any other ideas?...