Last night I got home at 1030 PM, a little bit drunk. H was annoying me as he really wasn't interacting with me and seemed a bit distant. I asked if he had a good day at work, and he said "I'm just playing," referring to playing his video game. So, I let it go and went upstairs for a bit, then went to bed. He came in shortly after and was nice, not overly affectionate, but not distant.
So this morning things have been better. I'm glad I didn't freak out last night at his distance. I need to learn it's not all about me, and even if it is, I can't make it better by pushing. I was close, very close, to saying too much last night.
Today H got up after me and we had some coffee together. He called me "little" several times, one of his sweet nicknames. He wants to study for the day and I have gone to town to do some errands. Before I left he talked about his work a bit, always a good thing as he seems a bit more open. He said he'd likely need to go on a business trip week after next. My 180 is not to get annoyed, so I didn't. I do worry that with so much time alone he'll send me emotional emails, but no reason to get paranoid already.
We have a trip coming up soon and that's what I will stay focused on. That will be 5 days of lots of togetherness but in a neutral place. I think it will be so good for us.
Ok off to shop,
ITH
Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
