Today we celebrated Saint Nicholas. My parents, my sister and her H and kids, my inlaws and H came over. It was lovely. The kids were so happy with all their presents, they were just over the moon. H spent most of the night helping them build all of their toy houses. We had dinner and it was all very nice. H stayed the longest. He took D7 and S5 home with him. They wanted to go with daddy, and also D7 has to play a very early hockey match tomorrow. S5 just wanted to be with his daddy. It hurt when they left, I felt my heart break a little again, but I stayed strong. It will be a long weekend without my kids. I will have to think of something fun to do. Next weekend H and ow are off with H's family to New York, to visit the big Apple...I'm finding that hard.
Anyway, it was a lovely day.
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Hi Cinders, hold onto that lovely day thought. Revisit it when you feel a little down. Lots of couples living together don't have special days like this. Have you got plans for next week end,might be wise to keep busy. How is your dog doing I bet he lights up your life. Do you still have presents on Christmas day as well. I forget if you are Dutch or Flemish? perhaps neither my memory is not what it was especially at this time of year. ((()))
I can't wait to hear what Cinder's will do this weekend and the next!!!
Well, I will be putting up my Christmas tree this weekend ! And Sunday the kids will hopefully be home a little earlier, to help me decorate it ! I love doing that with them !
Maybe I will call some friends or even go to a movie...not sure yet. I will post when I know more !
Next weekend...mmm don't know yet. I'll have the kids, so that will be a HUGE help !
Naej, you're right, these are precious moments we can look back upon, and if not me, then the kids one day ! I'm Dutch but live in Belgium...so you weren't that far off. We do still have presents on Christmas day, but they are usually more practical, not as many toys. I do try to keep it within proportion as the girls both have their birthdays in January, so it's like a present-bomb this time of year ! hahaha !
Take care guys and thanks for posting ! xxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Oh Cinders your like me with birthdays, my x was just after C,mas and d is Jan, plus my SIL.my sons are Nov! now was that bad planning or no planning! Take care.
Cinders, What beautiful memories have been made this week! The memories will get you through those dark and lonely times and when you pull them out again, you will definitely smile and light up. Your children will remember those times and will often recall them as they grow up.
Keeping busy, but enjoying what you do, will not only bring a smile to your face, but also help you along the way. Cinder, you do not need to have something planned for each and every hour, but it appears that you've got the next couple of weekends pretty much planned out in your head.
I'm very proud of you!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
I wonder how ow feels when the kids want to and do go over there on spur of the moment?
Anyways, hugs to you. Been thinking about you and your kids.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Well it looks like I can add a 'visit to the ER' on my weekend list. I just got back from there with a friend of mine. She was kind enough to go with me. I have been having the idea that my heart skips beats and it makes me panic. I keep thinking my heart will stop and I will die. Sometimes I even think I'm choking. Anyway, long story short...apparently I am suffering from panic attacks. The doctor told me I need to find a way to relieve the stress in my life or else look for professional help. YIKES !
I think I will start looking into courses..meditation, yoga maybe...and anything else like that.
I'm just glad I'm not dying ....just yet.
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Cinders, Take care of yourself. Panic attacks are not any fun and when you have to sit in an ER, well...that's absolutely no fun. Yoga, walking, etc. are excellent stress busters. I think, even though you've been doing a lot of holiday things, keeping busy, etc., you are still somewhat detached to the drama of your h. It's okay. You are slowly drifting away from his drama more and more each day. However, you've got to just put him and thoughts of him up on a shelf and treat him like the paper boy. The focus now must be on you and your children. Your health is warning you that you need to be taking care of you for a change.
Hugs!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
