email has been sent!! thanks for the encouragement, ba!
I decided to omit the "love". I haven't signed an email to him that way or used that word to him since the bomb.
I can see how you are all eager for me to try something different.... lick his face, rip his pants off, use "love" at the end of an email... I am just afraid that if I "push" him he will just run away. Since he doesn't "owe" me anything and we already barely have any contact (1-2x a month) and we live 987 miles apart I am afraid if I do that he just will stop responding to me.
