To get off the sleeping pills. To get appetite back To let go of H - which C says I am doing slowly To not get angry but think I am going to hve to.
Dam it I know i have confidence, persoanlity and looks ( without soundin vain ) i have been sorry, he knows i will never do anything like affair again , he knows i am hurting and STILL he does not come round !!!!!
christmas in the park tonight in the city and i would love love love to go with him. He wont ask. I know he wont go.
I am frightened that I will turn to another man to get over this and i know that it is the wrong thing to do.
everyone thinks h behaviour is just punishing and he wants to get even. That helps me a little bit right now BUT where is my self esteem if I think it is okay to do this!
