Here I am hugging away!!!! I am sorry you are having a rough time today. I know hiw hard it is when we start feeling really angry, hurt, down, you name the negative emotion.
I also suspect you came to ask for a hug because you are worried about me. That would be just like you.;). I am okay. Very busy at work and really, feeling a bit better since last night. I really cannot quite explain it. It's just sort of sinking in, I guess, that there really is nothing I can do to help/change H.
I am still scared he'll never come back, never heal all that bad stuff, just accepting, slowly that that is out of my hands. Just give me a few days, though, I am sure I'll be back crying my eyes out.
You know how I said I have been scared to death that I am going to get a call in the middle of the night saying H has had a heart attack? Phone rang last night at 1:00 a.m. Scared the life out of me. It was some guy speaking some foreign language (not French, I speak that one and not Spanish, I would recognize that one). Just a wrong number but man did it get my adrenaline pumping. Kind of funny, right?
Sorry, did not mean to turn this into a post all about me. I am sorry you are having a bad time. I'll be aroung tonight and will check on you then.
