Kristi, you owe no apologies sweetie. I am just thankful that you are okay and that you are back. You were being given a huge amount of information to process. We all do process differently, so to back off and have time to think about everything sounds perfectly normal. I read your post on your thread last night right before I went to bed and you sounded so much stronger.

There are times that I may go for a few days without being on, but it is usually b/c I am sick and don't feel like sitting at the computer. I have Fibromyalgia pretty bad and when it flares up big time....I am in pain all over and just can't do anything. That was what happen last week. In fact, I had the flu, the the stomach bug, then the Fibro flared, so me and the reclinere have become best buds \:\)

I went home for lunch and for some reason my computer could not connect with the Internet. So, I wanted to tell you and any of the rest of you that if it doesn't get straightened out this weekend, not to worry about me. But, I hope it does.....just knowing that I can't get on the Internet drives me crazy...lol. It is kind of like knowing the TV doesn't work......that is when you want to watch it!

Other than just cooping with the physical problems, things have been going pretty good and I feel that my H and I are so much closer these days. This time last year.....ugh, I wasn't so sure I would ever feel that way again. So, I say that hoping it will give some of you more faith. My H has been so good to me and I have a lot to be thankful for. Not many men would come home from working hard all day and then have to fix his own supper b/c his wife isn't able. He is good to go to the store to buy me medicine or just get something in the other room. We may not have a hot sizzlin sex like, but you know......these kinds of things count for a lot. There is one thing that I have noticed that he has tried to change and that is the fact when I say something.....he will look at me and give me his attention. Some of the ones that have been around a long time will remember me complaining about how that always drove me crazy when I would try to talk to him. So, even though I did make the statement once that he had done nothing to change or to "help" our stitch, I will have to back up on that part and say that he has changed there.

It takes a long time for some of us to come around, but don't give up hope. The main thing is to work on you. I think that is as much as what DB is all about as it is to bust a divorce.... to try to get yourself in better shape so you are ready to take on the world. That may include having somebody else in your life or not, but just knowing you will be stronger and happier and better all the way around.

When I get home.....and if I can get on the Internet, we will get down to brass tacks! \:D But, if I can't, just stay busy and read some other threads.

Talk later,
Sandi




It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!