What a difference 2 days makes. I'm feeling way more positive than I did 2 days ago. That was a rough day, and H made it worse with some of his comments. I saw my C yesterday. I told her what's been going on and she said something like whoa, you're overloading me with all this or something. It was a lot for me too in one day! Time and talking to the C have helped out I think.
The C thinks I'll be fine. I'm going to drive by today and look at a rental house that is $450 in my town. Supposedly a safe neighborhood but only 2 bedroom 1 bath. It will be a bit small for the 3 of us, but I think I should be able to handle all my bills then except maybe for the car. I am thinking my L's idea of having him pay for the car if he wants me to jointly file bankruptcy is a good one as that $330 would still be less than the $550 or so he would have to pay in credit card and student loans that he won't have to pay if I file with him. And I use the car 99% of the time for the kids to take them places, doctors, dentists, and their activities if he is so concerned about the kids as he has told me. I also might have to drive to a part-time job if I get one and that would probably reduce my alimony a little for him anyway, so seems like that would be a good deal for him, but he may not do it anyway he's such a troubled guy I think.
When we were at the courthouse waiting for the judge for an hour, H just sat in this little room with a big case of the legal paperwork from our D. I sat out where the other people were and made friends with the court reporter, the judge's assistant, and another lady who were all very nice. He didn't used to be like that. He would at least treat other people nicely if not me. He just seems like a different person to me.
I got a call back from a job I applied to a few weeks ago, I was at the bank. I called back and am hoping he will call me back. Also, talked to a woman that owns a consignment shop downtown-mostly books and toys. She also wants to hold kids classes there and I think she wants me to help with that and selling stuff on the weekends. The drawback to that is she was saying that at this point she would have to pay me in merchandise from the store--books and toys but I guess I could get lots of Christmas presents for the kids, plus recent job experience. Told her I'm great with kids and books and everything, but not with spreadsheets and she said that's fine. They still haven't figured out the cash register yet and have been writing it down!!! A fellow non-techie!!! As you know me, I told the woman my life story before I thought of asking for a part-time job there! And she had a husband just like mine too!!! So she seems really cool!
So now I need to call my brother and let him know I'm ok tonight. I cried on the phone with him for like an hour the other day!!! Poor guy!!! Hope everyone's good--will try to catch up on everyone today.
Oh, I opened my first solo bank account today. Haven't done that since college and the lady was super nice. Such a great feeling to do that!!!
Oh, I forgot to mention that H emailed me he and his mom would be coming to my church this Sunday to see D9 sing. And I'm joining the church (officially) that day you have to stand up in front of everyone and answer questions. So that will be fun!!! Karen
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