Thanks gang! I was really starting to hum along nicely in my life, lots of positives, lots to be happy about, then boom. I really don't care to be riding a roller coaster at this point and don't appreciate being shuffled towards one. But I must accept responsibility here too because of my own "what if-ing" definitely contributes to the roller coaster.
I do think this "what if" is probably all part of the process we all either will or have gone through. I don't think it's wrong be in this position and I really don't care for it. But I am here so I have to deal with it the best I can.
To answer my question though, right now I don't know what the answer is, I don't know if I'd be want or willing to have a new relationship with her or not. I do miss having the family together, taking adventures, laughing and sharing. Yes I do miss conversations with her, sitting quietly together, navigating life with her and such. #$%@ it this sucks to go through this all over again!!
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
