She hasn't said anything about it directly. When we did some winter clothes shopping with the boys a couple of weeks ago, she picked out some sweaters for me and when I tried them on she did say I looked good. So I think she does notice but doesn't feel like giving too many compliments at this time I guess.
I think my W felt similar to you as far as the ML goes. She always insisted that the lights be off. I told her that it is exciting to me to see what I am doing and to who I am doing it, so sometimes we would leave a small light on, but I think she probably still was uncomfortable about it. I also told her that I am attracted to her the way she is. However, I did notice that over the last year that we still ML (haven't since Feb this year) she never initiated it. That made me feel like I was "using" her for my pleasure and I didn't like that feeling, so I initiated less. In the spring in MC, she asked me why I did not initiate sex as much anymore and I told her how it made me feel when I initiate pretty much all the time, to which she said that she doesn't always have to be in the mood, that we could have had sex just to have sex. But she had told me in Feb (when we stopped) that she just couldn't anymore because it didn't feel right. To me, that sounds like we cannot have sex just to have sex. She said it felt like ML to her brother (like a platonic kind of love I guess). Later, close to the summer, before she moved out, she asked me if I was getting frustrated. She then said that she knows that I am "helping" myself, that she understands why I am doing it, but it is bothering her. She then said something that I remember well because it confused the heck out of me, she said (while crying): "It really sucks that I cannot ML to you!"
So, what would you make of that? Just trying to understand her better. Thanks for your insight!!
