Sometimes I cannot take this place....

[Sugar and Spice]

Reading all of your sweet posts made me cry at work today. You guys are so great!

H was here when I got home tonight. He came over to get a Christmas tree for the kids (damage control) and I was cordial, but there is an obvious difference. I feel different. He got a new phone yesterday and hadn't turned off the text alert and of course it was going off and he started to send a text and I said very calmly, "I've asked you before not to do that in front of me. Its incredibly disrespectful." and then I left the room. There was a little talk about the situation, but I avoided as much as possible. I wasn't mean and I wasn't sad, I just simply was. There were a couple of opportunities to drop a truth bomb and I took them. The biggest was me telling him how from my perspective he has chosen her all along. He left to "figure things out, which in reality was "dating" her, he got her pregnant and then had to "get her through it", now its "waiting for the test results." There is ALWAYS an excuse and I don't want to have to hear about "whats next." There were a couple of others, but thats the one that stands out in my mind.

I'm doing pretty good, this is going to be hard but I have no other choice.