Yes, I do get to decide. I have gone too long letting her decide everything. I can't decide that she will turn around, but I can decide how I am going to let if affect me. I can decide where I go from here!
When I decided to give her the letter I had gotten to the point of realizing that there is nothing to lose. This isn't a marriage, anyway.
To answer the question, I think I could love my wife, I'm not sure I love her now. Or maybe I should say I love her, but I'm not in love with her! (That hurt, just to type it! )
I don't know that I am there 100%, but I am getting much closer to the point where she can't hurt me any more.
YAY!
Except for that last line. It's not good that you're close to that point and to me at least, it indicates that it's time to start making some moves.
You will do fine, I am sure.
You are much stronger than when you began this journey, you know...
