I'll be headed off to Retrouvaille tommorrow so I'll be off the forum until Monday at the soonest.
One parting thought... don't spend too many cycles trying to decide if you want the M or not. It really doesn't matter at this point anyway!
The reality is that your wife is in the drivers seat at the moment. If she sticks with her desire to divorce, then it really doesn't matter what you think anyway.
Yes, I know that is a bit morbid. But from your point of view, you need to do the same things whether you want to save the M or not! Either way, you need to improve yourself and generate a positive attitude to life.
So just work on doing the things you need to do for yourself and keep having rewarding time with the kids. Don't waste emotions trying to continuously answer a question that really doesn't matter right now.
Now, if wife sees your improvements and changes her mind, then you will need to decide some things down the road. But that point is a long ways off at this point.
Detach...Detach...Detach
My thread, Carpe Diem #4 Orig Thread: Carpe Diem #1