And I'm Still Learning

[lovehimso]

Glad to see you here tonight Beth. Been thinking about you.

I am glad to see that you are able to feel a little relief from the worry about your H and the fact that you can't do anything to help him. I know how much you worry about him, especially his health, both mental and physical. Remember, only HE can help himself. I have to keep reminding myself of that with my H, too, when it comes to his addiction issues.

I think ALL of this comes in ebbs and flows. I think that is what is so hard, you know? You think you're seeing positive changes in yourself or your S, and then it feels like it all gets taken away. Sometimes I feel so out of control, even of my own thoughts and emotions.

But I have to keep thinking, "two steps forward, one step back". As long as over time we are still moving forward, small setbacks aren't that big of a deal, even if they feel like it at the time.

(((Beth))) Enjoy your night, okay? I'm dealing with some anxiety tonight over a conversation H wants to have with me tomorrow. If you're interested, I've posted about it over on the "Guys...chime in" thread. Not sure if you've been over there or not yet, but it's been VERY interesting and it's helped me understand the guy's point of view a lot better.

Sleep well tonight, my friend. I'll be checking on you...