Hm...
she just picked up my son and it was a strange interaction...I had told her that I might be going out of town - since I knew that her mother would be in town this weekend - and that she would want to have more time with her grandson (my son is their first grandchild). As it turns out, I have too much work to do this weekend - and won't be able to go after all...so when my W came by tonight, she asked me if I was still going out of town this weekend - and when I said no, she said, "that figures" - and was already getting pissed off...then she asked me if I was expecting to have my baby boy with me on Saturday - to which I said, I would love to have him, but that I thought it would be best for him to spend the time with his grandmother - and not have to be handed back and forth so much that day - that way he could just enjoy his time with his grandmother...when I said that, my W's tone suddenly changed and she asked me if I would like to have him with me at some point that day, and if I would have my S11 with me.

I once again said that I would love to have my baby boy with me - but that I would rather do what seemed best for him on Saturday - and then she said that she thought her mom wanted to spend some time alone with her too - so that maybe she would bring my baby boy by after all...

Anyway...all that "drama" aside, I had a wonderful evening with my baby tonight - just played with him a lot - filmed him playing and talking...and singing - and then just watched a bit of Finding Nemo with him until she picked him up. He seemed a bit under the weather - so relaxing just seemed like exactly the kind of thing he wanted to do.

...another odd moment of the day...my FIL called me today - to ask me about getting a Christmas gift for my mom...didn't know what to make of that...so I just let it be...and said that she really liked what they sent her last year...

okay...I've got to eat something and get myself at least a bit ready for that men's group tonight...


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S3,S13

"We consent to live like sheep." W.H. Auden

On my own
Separation #4