the nice thing about where I am today as oppossed to last year (or now even almost 2 years ago) is the pain is not so ripe. it is a terrible pain- i remember it well and to be honest don't want to ever forget it. that pain -- that true heart aching has changed me so very very much. i am more compassionate then ever before, i have learned to watch out for myself, my feelings, my thoughts and my desires -- and held on to my own values along the way.
i have not walked this journey perfect that is for dang sure. BUT i can say that i can hold my head somewhat high.
Dumb choices and mistakes along the way ???? OF COURSE!! but i can look myself in the mirror adn my kids in teh face and not have ANY shame. And that is something that I dont believe teh mlc'r will ever be able to do.
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
