Ms M, I am really going to try and keep it business like. Today I got a text from h saying he'd sent me the form for the payment holiday, can I sign it and send it off at the weekend so it reaches before our next payment. He didn't reply to my email asking to meet, he just sent me that so I replied. I said that I wasn't at work so couldn't see it he'd replied to my email but I had emailed him asking if he'd like to meet and chat through the options. I wasn't sure if a payment holiday was something I'd be happy with but I was happy to see if there were some other options to alleviate the mortgage pressure. He replied and asked if I was free tomorrow. As it turns out I am not, I have a really lovely evening planned with an old friend and I don't want to cancel. Do you think I should though to be amenable?
I don't feel that prepared though. Tonight I am really freaked out, which is why I am up posting a 1.30am. I stayed over at my parents last night so the house has been empty over night and I got home this evening and a bedside light in the room I never go in was on. I never go in there and there is no way I would have left it on. I phoned my friend who has a key and she said it wasn't her, the only person that has a key is h but I can't see why it would be him. There is no sign of a break in but I hate being here on my own. I feel really scared. I know I am going to be knackered and in no fit state to see him tomorrow. I really need to get out of this house now I feel. It is too full of memories and too big and scary on my own - that sounds a bit pathetic doesn't it but the light thing has freaked me out. I am sitting in bed with the cat listening to every sound... I wondered about this as a reply email to h's text.
'Hiya, sorry I didn't reply yesterday my phone ran out of battery. A weird thing happened when I got home last night. There was one of the bedside lights on in the pink room which I definitely did not leave on. I stayed at Mum and Dad's on Wednesday night so the house has been empty for two days. I wondered if you had popped round as R says it isn't her? I don't mind at all if you did but please can you let me know otherwise I will have to take some further precautions or at least investigate further. Nothing was stolen of moved as far as I can see but it was freaky to come home to and has left me feeling quite unsettled in the house without a logical explanation.
I have meetings all day today and then in the evening I am seeing E and this is the only chance I will get as you know I only see her once a year. She is off to Mexico for a while after tomorrow. I am free most of the weekend and Monday and Wednesday night. Do any of those suit?
