Today is Friday and tough day because I THINK he is going to OW xmas party.
I am so sick of my head being full of this S^%$. i need to turn it off. I am not taking anti depressants as they will rob me of victory when i come through all this crap.
At work yesterday, a customer who discovered my predicament asked me out to dinner. I kindly declined as I am a zillion miles from being company with another man.
H called this morning to disscuss business stuff. We talked about funeral he had been to , he said he thought I would of been there. I did not know the person had died !. I asked you should of told me - he said Oh but we have not been talkinG!!!!!
I am only at the end of a phone and we have 3 business's , 3 kids etc . F ^%$.
He was in a jolly mood as was I but then he is going out with another woman ( I think ) tonight - pretty sure.
My SIL came round last night for first time in months. First person in H side of the family to show interest in me. She was shocked at my condition and reaction. H had been at her place and he told her of his FRIEND , (that she was good to talk to). Yuk yuk yuk.
she thought H was just punishing, trying to get even etc. That does not make me feel better at all. He also told her, that he would never say never and that in a few years after we had dated people that did not work out , that we may get back together ! WTF.
If you think that there is a possibility in the future, why can you not act on it now ? Am i misssing something.
Any hurt husbands out there , that might be able to offer some insight here ?
