Isn't it wierd how nice the calm is. Yes I still hold a little hope but I can't let it rule me anymore. And yes, you will find that someone. There is someone for each of us that we will click with in a way that is fantastic. Someone who will make us think, who will challenge us to be ourselves, and accept us for that. I'm glad you are doing well also.
Ali, how do I have such optimism? Because I finally found me again. Because I honestly believe that everything happens for a reason. I have found that when I stop analyzing, thinking, and just live, while being true to what my heart wants, everything is ok. There is the key. Listening to your heart and following it no matter what obstacles your brain or life put in front of you. My life has taught me that I can do whatever I want, survive anything that comes my way no matter how difficult it is. I used to have the "negative" pictures of the future. But I let them go. It is a very hard thing to explain except that maybe it was a matter of getting out of my head.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
