ooops! My thread crossed yours and I never looked back up. I think that was a very good baby step. You can see that he was pretty sure he knew where you would be. You'll need to make that a habit. Don't be immediately available when he calls and don't be the predictable MT. I think you did perfectly last night!!!
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
morning!! gosh its cold!! i think the coldest its ever been this winter so far.
I am soooooooooooo proud of you! that was awesome what you did last nite. now, did it make you feel good? or did you feel sad because you ignored his call?
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
I didn't feel sad until I got home and he was there, not really sad I guess, but bad that he was waiting for me, I guess. I know I have nothing to feel sad, he is the one doing this to us not me. Just felt weird not answering. I was excited he was at home when I got there, made me hope he didn't like being at OW's house all night. But who knows what he is feeling.
MT, last night was a wonderful baby step for you! Nice job!
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In high school, I didn't go out a lot, I would always use the horses as an excuse as to why I didn't go out, and for the most part it was true, but there were a lot of times, I just didn't feel like socializing.
Ohso true how easy it to find excuses to stay home. I like being home, it truly does make me happy to be home and be me and make progress on all the jobs to do. When this all started with H it was so very hard to force myself out of the house and live my life without him by my side. I had always been socially involved in the horse world, and when H joined my life he joined that as well. I loved it! Then he dropped that part of his life while excluding me from his and I had to forge on without him by my side any longer. It was very hard, and I still miss him not being with me but I won't let him wreck that part of my life.
Sorry that's such a long version of what I wanted to say - if you get out in the world and surround yourself with good people to support you it will increase your confidence in yourself. There are so many worthy groups that would benefit from a wonderful talented person like yourself. Is there a state chapter for AQHA? a local saddle club? the local food pantry? Salvation Army? an elderly home? are your dogs good with fragile people? take them to visit the elderly (get the ok first).
Find ways to fill your life with joy that does not hinge on H.
Single digits here this morning. H started my truck for me and I didn't have to ask! I think he loves me!!! JK!!!
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
KEL - YOU SUCK!!! or at least your weather does!!! OH I SO WANT WARM WEATHER!!! I do really hope we go to the auto auction in January in Scottsdale, and I hope it is warm there if we do!!
sheesh Kel you just have to rub it in dont you lol??? yes right now we can shoot either, we will probably get 4, at least thats what we are hoping!!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
WC- Thanks! I know I need to find things to get involved. It is something, I have never really done I guess. I met my H, at a conference in Wichita that I was working at for my student employment at my school. I had to leave town to meet someone from my town. Then we hung out at a friend's house off and on for a month before I really went after him. LOL.
I have thought about getting a second job at one of the casinos. I think I would meet a lot of different people doing that. I figured at least during my school break from now to late January, and then we get a week off from Christmas to New Years at my work so that would give me things to do and some extra money.
I really appreciate everyone's encouragement.
WC- Glad he started your truck! That is a very nice sign!
JK!!!