The bookshelf doesn't need to be perfect

[ThinkingItThru]

I haven't been around for awhile. I've been sorting things out, but when I had a look at this post "K" I am amazed at how we have ended up in about the same place in our journeys.

H is still living at home with me and everything is peaceful, but I have accepted that I have been replaced. And intellectually and spiritually I'm OK with it because I have come to believe that everything does work out.

My H is still showing no signs that his feelings for me have changed for the positive or negative. He's just there. Mostly in his cave with his sports and texting his girlfriend.

But I've had a turnaround. I believe that life is preparing to open a door for me and perhaps all this stuff with H was just him preparing me to walk through it. I've just starting keeping my eyes open for that door.

I recently sent him a communication asking if he ever intended come back. If not, I will start looking at a lot more doors as possibilities.

I honestly believe that there is a partner out there who will care, love, and respect me. Someone who wants to hear what I have to say. Someone who gets me. I suppose there is still a chance that this will be him, but if its not...I'm not afraid anymore.

I think that's the biggest difference in me...a lack of fear and an optimism about the opportunities that life has in store.

Regarding astrology, I also follow Priya and I've done my horoscope and this is so in sync with all that. This is a time of endings and there will be major beginnings coming up.

I still hope that H is in there somewhere, but I'm not anxious about the fact that he might not be. [although there still is a little rush of irritation when I walk by him and see him texting. Hey, I'm only human].

Glad you're doing so well. Peace is a grand thing. Perhaps the best thing.