Well...tomorrow is the day....the day my life will drastically change...H goes to court with the mother of his "love child" for child support....I am very scared, nervous, mad...you name it...every emotion I can think of...
I've been sick since last Friday so that doesn't help...my defenses are down from being sick and I am so worried for myself and my children's future...we will forever be changed...
My H was here last night dropping son off from practice and I gave him a check to pay off the attorney..he wanted me to go over what our bills were again..I gave him all his information to fight this, told him I would stand behind him..I didn't even get a thank you...probably not what I should have done but if he screws me over he is less of a man than I already thought he was...he often says "we" when he is refering to our house our kids or our money...kind of strange since he wants a divorce....I told him we can't afford a divorce right now and his response was, "we'll never be able to afford it" but we have to do it....
I'm not sure if I have any tears left for him...I feel sorry for him...he has no home to call his own anymore...and if he does get a place it will be some cheap apartment...and now I don't think he'll even be able to get that if he has to pay support...his girls won't speak to him...it's sad...I just wonder how long it will be before he crashes...I guess if he does crash...he may never...I'm actually prepared for that...
I've realized that there are people out there who care about me who think I'm beautiful, who actually want to go out with me..kind of flattering....but scary too...I will be guarded for a while...my heart is behind a brick wall...no will touch it for a long time...
So, I wanted to stop by...maybe you all could say a prayer for my family...we could use it...
(((hugs)))
Last edited by Treese; 12/04/0812:36 AM.
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
Thinking of you and will say an extra prayer for you.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
On pins and needles this morning....I think I'm going to throw up....
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Of course he isn't going to call me at work...if I can say one good thing it's that...he won't upset me at work....
I don't get home until 4 and then if it's bad news I don't know if he'll tell me right away....
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
