By the way, some good things are happening to me. D21 got a loan so she can pay me back and I spoke with a cousin I haven't seen in 5 years. She felt bad for me and understands me giving her time and space to get her head together. She hopes I am well an getting thru the craziness. told I will get thru this, she told me no doubt, in our family you are without a doubt the strongest. funny, you were the one who was always there for everyone when their lives needed a push or help, and now you feel alone. she says its everyone else's turn to help me. She is so nice.
