Nas
Please don't beat yourself up. We all made mistakes. We are humans after all. Your mistakes DO NOT define who you are. It is how you learn from them and better yourself, that's the important part. It's not how you fall that matters, but how you get up.
You have to forgive yourself first, and the BIG MAN upstairs will take care the rest, trust his guidance.

On previous post, you said your family is another battle. I just want to let you know this is YOUR battle, not your family. Keep this in mind, family support is very very important but they can be bias. If you feel they are bringing negative POV into your sitch, I will try to avoid the subject with your family. This is YOUR decision after all.
I am glad to see the house finance seems to be taking care of. You don't need another distraction per sake.

I know you want to show him you are interested/care in his life, but you can't force it. You have to wait for him to take the lead. Otherwise, it will come across as fake. Just listen, validate and be supportive when he talks to you.

As far as Saturday meeting...you list is good.
I like the muffins part. May be you can show her that you can be a 'Simple' woman once a while.

Again what's done is done. We have to look forward and keep driving that bus and hopefully one day our WASs will hop in for the ride.

You can do this.

NW626


Me:33 STBXW:38 S:3
It's not whether you win or lose, it's how you fight the fight....!!