Hope just trying to catch up. You are doing good. Can't wait to hear about the shredding. I'm glad it made you feel better a little anyway. How something so simple could make you feel better I don't really understand but sometimes it works so I never argue it. I just love smashing coffee cups. Don't do it often at all but once in a while... LOL
Told MT the rollercoaster is suddenly making a small uturn but I remembered something else about the conversation as I was reading the last couple pages here. The infidelity thing you posted. Last night while H was making the big I'm wondering but dont' think it would work speech, after I calmed down, I did yell a little LOL, I told him, I still love you, something else I can't remember exactly, but he said "see-you are climbing all over me again." Simply by telling him even though I have to move forward, that I haven't slammed the door yet. It was like the slightest thought of committing to anything made him want to run. Even thinking about committing to anything. Wierd. So now he is thinking. Done worrying about what will happen. That has been where I've been heading lately. Anyway, now I forgot what my point was. I'm sure you'll get it.
Have a great day, I need more coffee
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
