The Soap Suds are out of the tub.

[kelaaron]

Wow MT are we twins? Even down to the high school thing. I am not an "out" kind of person. Never have been. I tried after the bomb but it just felt so fake. That is when I started to find other things. Around home, on the computer, that I enjoy.

I too still wake every couple of hours. Don't really know why but... You will figure that part out. I'm glad I'm not the only one thinking too available. I too was/am too available to H.

Listen, you know where my head is, what H and I have talked about the last few days. Well last night the rollercoaster went off the tracks and may be turning around. H finally mentioned the only person he has ever been able to just accept was GM cuz she never hurt him. How long have I been saying that here? Some other things, the last couple days were good, wondering, but as soon as he really starts to consider, the hurt and anger come back. He is not anywhere near figuring it out but he is maybe moving in that direction. No idea what the outcome might be in his mind, but what a difference from anything he has said for months now.

Just wanted to share that as something to think about. Time is on your side even though it feels like the enemy. But you have to save yourself in the meantime. Or your soul will be crushed by the time he gets there and then what? Start small or dive right in I dont' know which will work for you. But...

Have a wonderful day, I have some reading and stuff to do today, but I will try to be more present. Missed all you guys these last few days, but boy yesterday was productive.