Indulging my stylish side....

[sage]

So...despite my currently freaked out state (revisiting the past! Yikes!), I do want to post that we had a very good weekend. I met h in town after his class and we went out for drinks (Friday). Sat. we went to see the Sox play and then out for an early dinner. h studied when we got home. Yesterday h played a double header while I cheered him on! Then more studying for him (he's doing SO great) while I relaxed. We had a nice dinner and an early night.

h has been saying and doing a lot of wonderful things...he's been very loving...and he's been including me in his new schoolwork...reading me parts of it, chatting with me about it. That makes me feel really good.

My intention today was to start a new thread...for the last few days I've realized that I'm still clinging to fear over the future...fears that h will leave me...that I am not enough for him. I realized last night that this type of mindset was a contributing factor to the issues in our M. Yah, it stinks to be "working without a net" but that's the way life is! I need to stop beating myself up for my perceived failures as a wife...I need to stop questioning (only in my head, of course) the "realness" of what's going on...I need to remind myself to appreciate each moment I have today and not get mired in past (ahem) or future.

I hadn't really expected to be feeling so sad right now...I guess that's what a trip down memory lane will do for you. So...not only is an attitude adjustment in order...but it's probably even MORE warranted given the timing.

I'll post a link as soon as I got one!

Sage