I know in my gut that I will be okay if H divorces me and never looks back. I have some sort of survivor light or something deep inside me and I always make it through things. That said, it is not what I want. I do not want to accept it even as a possibility.
I agree that fear is part of what keeps me clinging to hope for reconciliation but there is more to it than that. I know I will have a full life with or without him. I am working to ensure that.
