God grant me the patience and the strength...9

[theotherhalf]

an2m, it's hard/almost impossible to live my life for me. I am stuck in this place of indecision. I don't know where I will live 6 months from now. I don't know how I am going to pay all these bills that are piling up. I don't know how I am going to pay my fines and restitution. I could file for divorce than at least I would KNOW that I am now single. But I don't see that as the answer either. I don't know where to turn, how to move forward but dambit I am sick and tired of being here.

H was here tonight when I got home. It's like he's right back to the place he was 6 months ago. He didn't even look at me when I walked into the door. I could not look at him either. I am so angry at him for being so stuck. A part of me wants to tell him to get out and leave us alone. He's done enough damage.

I was civil and just went about my business. He just left, and I'm glad he's gone...