To be honest the thought that he will reject me again makes me feel that awful, anxious, panicky feeling, like when he first left.
Anyone have any great resources to help me deal with this fear of rejection?
I don't think I have a good answer, but what I do is to try and remember that it's not ME being rejected, it's H dealing with something within himself and rejecting that, rather than anything to do with who I am. It's a little shift in perspective that I think makes a big difference (for me, anyway!)
Originally Posted By: Essie
I looked at myself in the mirror this morning and thought "I'm never going to be able to break up with him, I'm always going to have some sort of hope. Love never gives up.... UNLESS I meet someone new, and then it would be easy to get over rotten lovable H'. I dont know if I could actually divorce him, I dont know....
OMG- I so totally identify with this! I've always thought that I'd have the box of 'H's love' open until someone new came along to float my boat, at which point a new box would open, and the lid would shut on H's box (except th box would still be there). This is a silly analagy, I realise as I type, but what I'm trying to say is that I understand! Are you still dating? or have you stopped while you and H are dating?
I hope your day is going beautifully! I wish you could come to London and CEO could take us out to his club and we'd get chatted up by all sorts of delicious and rich hot men! Mwahahahaha to our H's!!