Quote: in the background was the feeling that I've "always" had that my h was going to cheat on me and leave me....this has all kinds of tentacles back into my childhood and my own crappy thought process, etc, etc. I was angry A LOT of the time...well, angry and worried.
Jeez, Sage, this sounds so much like me it's freaky. For years I've had nightmares about my W cheating on me...my worst fear. I suppose my focus on this caused the universe to make it a reality. Also, the anger and worry. Can I assume your parents are D'd, and thus you have fears of abandonment, and need to control your environment since you had no control when you were younger? This is my personal dynamic.
Quoting LL:guess it depends on what you mean by "turn on"
So, a guy who straps on spikes, climbs to the top of a tree to do a poetry reading will cover all bases???