sage, sorry to hijack your thread, and i have been doing a lot of reading on your sitch but haven't quite come to this point yet
deb made some points in my thread about forgiveness, and since we have similar sitches, i was just wondering if there was a specific point at which you realized deep down that you had forgiven your h, or have you even gotten to that point?
if you have gone past the forgiveness part, does your H know that you forgave him? if so, how did he deduce that? did you come right out and tell him or by your actions he knew?