You have come so far in the last year (and a half). You seem to be one of the few that has reconciled and are doing the hard work to make it succeed. Congratulations.
You know, I still remember the little mantra you gave me a year ago...
My wife is gone. I dont need my wife. But I want my wife.
My marriage is over. I dont need my marriage. But I want my marriage.
That one sure helped me out a lot. Thanks.
Even though my marriage failed, I am coming out all rosey now. And I am back to having fun in bed which means a lot to me (and my second brain).