Did your wife always dislike you "being all over her"?
Jayce - Unfortunately yes. If I knew then what I know now about her and myself, I never would have married her. I think in the beginning she tolerated my amorous nature but really could take or leave it. Stupid me fell in love with her and ignored the fact that we were incompatible in the bedroom because I loved her so much. So here I am trying to fix something that I am afraid was never there to begin with. I will try but don't have much hope of things changing.
I just can't keep living a lie. This is the way I am and want to be. As her true nature was revealed to me (once the honeymoon few years ended) I should have confronted our difference then. I didn't though, instead I started my "secret sex life" which over the years got to the point I was having affairs... not good. I don't want my life split in two, I want to give my love and affection to one woman who wants it and me.
To me what I am asking for from her is such a simple natural thing. To her it is like asking her to be someone she is not. Sound familiar? Who knows if we will make it or not.
I'll check out the "Humunculus" it sounds very interesting.
Ava - I am doing good physically. All bruising gone and almost feeling no pain at all. I'm ready for ML now except someone is enjoying her hiatus from sex a little too much and I think we all know who I am talking about here. Mentally I am having doubts again though, as you can see above. I just feel like we're falling back into our old patterns again only being nicer to each other now. I'm not sure how much longer "nice" will last for me without my desires being fulfilled.
I don't want my life split in two, I want to give my love and affection to one woman who wants it and me.
