aliens undercover: married to the pod

[hoosiermama]

And these are people I no longer have relationships with, but H clearly still does. It really bothers me, grieves me even, that he seems to have lost nothing in spite of causing such devastation,

Perhaps not now, but eventually he will realize what he has lost...his family, a wife who loved him, and, his dignity. The truth will emerge eventually.

My thing is not so much that I want H to have some consequences (altho that wouldn't be such a bad thing). What bothers me so much about this is the betrayal I feel from the people I used to be close to who have cut me off, and who support H. That is what hurts. Yes, it's very irritating that H seems to be cruising thru this while everything is a struggle for me. But I really think it's more of a struggle because I feel so isolated. I was surprised to read one of the notes from a guy who I considered a close friend for the past 15 years, who I haven't heard from since a week after the bomb. The note to D said that he was sorry he hadn't been able to see her, hoped to see her before Christmas but wasn't sure he could. As if I was keeping him away!! I have emailed him a couple of times,letting him know I got a job, that kind of thing, but he has not maintained the relationship. I knew him before H did; he's known D since she was born; I was at his brother's funeral. I thought he was just feeling awkward and keeping his distance from both of us, but from the note it was clear he and H still do things together. Why am I the bad guy in this??!! It's not that I don't want H to have support. Really, that's irrelevant. It's more that I need support too, and it's not happening. And that hurts.