I'm all over this forum like a Jack rabbit trying to follow your train off thought.
Jeannine
since we're talking about the jack rabbit...have you seen that thing...oh...wait a minute...we weren't actually talking about THE "jack rabbit" were we?
shiny,
I hope you get closer to getting IT!
Sage,
what really is there to say...things seem to be going tremedously for you and you deserve all of it!! my hat is tipped to you!
Hi Sage. Sounds like you are becoming more comfortable with you, your H, and your new R. I'm happy that you've found the peace within yourself to recognize what can be done (or avoided) to make your R better than it has ever been.
Quote: Some of my fears bubbled up over the weekend...that I won't be able to keep him interested in just me I worked through 'em....
Sage,
Glad to hear you worked through them. I'll bet you thought DB right. Work on you and they will be attracted to a positive, confident, happy, secure Sage right??? Isn't thats what it's all about? The stages we go thru may be different, but the underlying theme reamins the same.
Way to go Sage, your'e the light at the end of the tunnel we all seek.
Wow. Thanks to new and old friends for the visits and support! Would you all be disappointed to hear that I'm stuggling today? Just feeling anxious and a bit leery...hard to admit but too frequent thoughts of the ow (paranoia -- are they still in contact, etc) started last night...continue today.
BUT, well, just 'cause the same old thoughts and fears have come around...well, doesn't mean I have to treat them in the same old way, right?
Still got the positives. Still got the "control what you can control" mantra. Still have me in all my glory.
So, what's a 180 here? Taking care of me and my thoughts...feeling the fear and not freaking out....it's OK to feel anxious sometimes. OK to just not know.
3 positives from yesterday:
1. h and I went out to celebrate an anniversary of sorts. Had a great meal and some very nice cocktails.
2. We had a really nice conversation about a lot of stuff over dinner...
3. h thanked me for "the date"
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
Actually, Sage, you're doing so well in general, we're GLAD you're struggling a bit today! ...Just Kidding...sort of .
No, really, this is to be expected, isn't it? I have those days and moments, too. But damn, girl, aren't we WAY better prepared to deal with them than in the past????
So kitti is reading through ALL of your threads??? Brave endeavour! Hope she has a week or two!
Just feeling anxious and a bit leery...hard to admit but too frequent thoughts of the ow (paranoia -- are they still in contact, etc) started last night...continue today.
Not sure why. Maybe it is that full moon! 
...Just Kidding...sort of 
