I double checked with H 2 more times. This morning I said that if he was doing it only not to upset me, I didn't want to go. I then IMd him to say I was buying the tickets, wanted to make sure he was fine with the details. All was well. So I've booked, and he knows this.
I'm still not entirely sure he wants to go, but I can't keep assuming this. I have given him multiple opportunities to back out, and have not been pushy, at least IMO. This is a weird halfway stage still. Yesterday we talked about changing our internet provider. Again, such a little thing, but something that signifies longer-term commitment to the marriage. It as if everything is there now but the emotional closeness. He continues with his teasing, and I am being kind to the point of exhaustion. I am just keeping my cool at all times, and not letting anything sway me. I feel in some ways as though he's still testing things.
A vacation like this will be a true test, I believe. In fact when he dropped the first bomb, we were on a 3 week vacation...we travel a lot together, correction DID travel a lot together. I think it's important to see whether we can do this again. When we were on the holiday where he dropped the bomb, we were with my family. He said he felt so separated from everything. Now we are having a holiday with my ex, again a holiday with my people in a way. I want to make doubly certain that he feels a part of things this time. I'm a bit nervous to be honest. I guess though I have never met my ex's GF either, and we are staying with her family, so this is equally odd for all of us. I just can't believe how strange it is, the more that I think about it.
OK I am being obsessive...:). Back to work!
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
