Not much, really nothing, to report today. Last night H came home late since he went to spin class at his new gym. I should consider myself very lucky that he comes home late because of working out!
We watched a documentary together, then went to bed. Lately he has been saying "let's go to bed." I like this. I talked some more about the trip to the Czech Republic, and while he doesn't seem as excited as I am, he still seems on board with it. At this point I can't keep second guessing why he has agreed to this holiday. If it is just to make me happy, then it could be that he is trying to do something nice for me because he knows he hasn't been in the state to do much recently. Whatever the reason, I am accepting this, and will just do my best to make sure that he doesn't feel like I am controlling everything.
There was no ML or anything in bed, and there hasn't been for quite awhile. However, he is still laying with his arm on me, and throughout the night moves closer to me rather than away. Feels right now as though things are standing still a bit, and even as though H might be trying to spend a bit more time doing his own thing. This is fine and I know that things are going to accelerate over the holidays, or at least be different. H has 2 tests next week, and I am doing my best to make sure I help with as much as possible to alleviate the stress. He had complained before that he was so stressed from work and school, and that I made things worse. I don't entirely agree with his assessment of the situation, but now am doing all of the errands that I can, and just generally not pressuring him in the house when I know he wants to study or relax. I really don't know if he is noticing these positive changes or not. I just don't know what's going through his head. I do know that we haven't had one disagreement since I came home over 3 weeks ago. We used to fight on a daily basis...
Anyway I am going to continue to bite my tongue, at least through the holidays, and not ask what he is thinking/feeling. My biggest concern now is that I know he wanted more intimacy, but this is hard to do without these kinds of discussions. If anyone has ideas for building intimacy without R talks, I'd love to hear them...
ITH
Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
