You are being so strong!!! You are doing such a good job of thinking through your options and your actions. I like OD's email edits, and the idea of starting from scratch to come up with a solution together.
One thing about one of Essie's questions. Could you become financially independent from your H without selling the house?
In terms of the "pay your own bills/let him continue to go halves" debate, I can see it either way, but I completely think you are doing the right thing by continuing to let him pay.
What are your top travel destinations that you would go to if you decided to do the 8 month mortgage holiday? did you find a good place to take driving lessons yet?
Also... just thinking ahead... if you did rent the house out, if it's hard to keep up and also not close to anything, would you be traveling back to the house to perform maintenence? or would H be doing that? would you have a maintenance fund to hire someone else to fix things when they broke? I am probably getting ahead of myself here.
I also thought it was really interesting that you felt more compassion for your H after seeing bodyworlds.
