{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}} TxMom we missed you. I would like to say "ditto" to the way you are feeling. I think that the holidays are putting added pressure on us and it is a painful and sad time. I also am waking up almost every night with H and OW on my mind. I understand the stress you are under.
It has to be difficult worrying about the lunch date. Try to be prepared. Do not bring up anything about D. If H does, remind him that he said there would be no D papers and then say I thought that would include any mention of D either. My DB counselor said if my H wants to meet to talk and bring up D, try and keep the conversation limited to less than 10 minutes and then treat the rest of the time as if he asked you on a date. Maybe that is a little unrealistic but it did make sense when she told me.
Have you done anything with an atty about charging your H with Adultery? It will definitely help your case if he wants a D.
the most important thing is breathe, breathe deep. I know some days are worse than others. It is tough for me since I can't get away from this even at work since they both work there... take care...
Me 53 H 50 D16, D29 M 22 years bomb 7/08 INH - alien pod replaces H 8/08 - OW (direct report), I work there also bomb II - H moves 10/1 expose ow 10/22 D to be final 9-09
